I am severly depressed and have no will to live. How can I make someone hear me?

I have been battling depression since 1988 (more than half of my life). I have been d by people I have trusted (including a pastor that i went to for counseling, so please don't sling God at me on this) i have seen several therapists (who nod their heads, throw meds at me and offer no means of coping), my ex-husband took my kids from me (they were my only will to live) and the courts are allowing him to remain in violation of my visitation rights so i haven't seen my kids in over a year and i have been replaced as their mother. My daughter is being molested under her father's roof and i have called DHS and they are being VERY half-hearted about it. I hate my job. There is no joy in my life. I have a very loving husband now and he is the only reason I haven't killed myself...but my depression seems to be pushing him away. I have even told him i am suicidal. No one is listening. I hate this world. I hate this life. How can i get someone to hear me? I am tired. I want it all to stop